思い出編 ~眠れない時にしてたこと~



Kristina talks about her time when she wasn’t able to sleep. She was a pretty active child…what were you guys like?

Everyone has their own sleeping habits and quirks. Sleep is one of those things we all need in order to function “properly” during our waking hours. Getting enough quality sleep at the right times can protect your mental health, physical health, quality of life, and safety. These are things we all know and have heard numerous times from parents, teachers, and medical advisors…but many of us still ignore this sage advice.


My relationship with sleep has always been a troubled one. From the ages of 12-21 I suffered from mild insomnia. I would spend the day at school and only be able to sleep for 3 hours a night. There were several factors at play but I think a lot of it had to do with stress and my general hyperactive body and mind. After my mother would go to sleep I would climb out of bed and either spend hours on the internet reading or chatting with strangers from different countries. Eventually, I started wandering outside and exploring the world at night. I had actually grown up in a small town in New Jersey so I didn’t expect to find anything interesting. That however was not the case. The shadow of night had changed my familiar neighborhood into something new, dark and exciting. I would walk down streets usually filled with cars, only to be greeted by the tall trees that stood on the side of the road. Sometimes a car or two would pass by and I would wonder what their passengers were doing up at 3 in the morning. I spent a lot of my sleepless nights walking around…occasionally stumbling upon other people with similar sleep patterns. Most of them were just teenagers hanging out in empty parking lots.


I suppose this consistent exposure to unfamiliar people and experiences was sort of positive affirmation for my actions. It was in no way healthy…and I was constantly running on adrenaline. But I did feel hyper aware of my surroundings for a time. And I was spending my waking time doing something I liked…meeting people and exploring. It got into my head that sleep was a waste of time. I thought that I didn’t need sleep. It wasn’t until I turned 21 when something changed. Maybe the stressors in my life had changed and became less significant…but my body started to take back the hours of sleep I lost over the years. I would suddenly feel tired then fall asleep…regardless of where I was. I would be driving…and suddenly realize I had been sleeping for a good portion of the ride. Needless to say…it was a very dangerous time for me. I’ve heard people say the body takes what it needs. And I guess my body was finally like, “FUCK YOU, KRIS! IT’S TIME TO SLEEP!”


Eventually, my life balanced out and both my sleep and personality are less manic. Nowadays with my work and training schedule, sleep has become precious to me. I still have trouble sleeping most nights, but I’m definitely getting more hours. What about you guys? What are your sleeping habits like? I sleep around 5-6 hours a night, but I know some people who say they can’t function unless they get at least 8 hours of rest. What about you? Do you have trouble sleeping? What are some things you’ve done to try to help yourself get to sleep?